deep waters
My twenties
Throughout my twenties, I fell in love with scuba diving.
I dove all over the world.
I even took jobs based on where the events were, knowing I could tag on a few days at nearby dive sites afterwards.
I dove everywhere from Mexico to Honduras, from Nicaragua to Turkey, from the Caribbean to some of the most remote and spectacular spots in Indonesia.
I once spent Christmas Day 40m below the surface of the crystal-blue ocean, swimming with sharks in a place called Raja Ampat – known as the underwater Mecca – before returning on our little boat to find the palm tree outside the beach shack wrapped in Christmas lights by my floppy-haired French neighbour.
A lot went down in my twenties, and – without cognitively analysing it – life just felt easier underwater.
It's where I felt most myself. Most in awe and appreciation of this magical world.
Most at peace.
The peace that comes from anchoring your awareness on your breath.
- From dropping out of your mind and into the presence of your heart.
- From the simplicity of being immersed in your senses.
- From the silence that comes from stepping back from the noise of the outside world - and all that's happening up there on the surface.
The other thing I loved was that whenever you went diving, you'd never go alone - you'd always be assigned a “buddy”. Someone to look out for you as you navigated the risks that came with exploring wild, deep waters.
One time I saved a girl from shooting off on a strong current - she'd lost a fin and was out of air. We held hands and locked eyes as she drew deep breaths from my second mouthpiece.
Another time, earlier on in my diving experience, my buddy held me tight, stabilising me and lessening my own panic as my mask started leaking whilst I was negatively buoyant and descending too fast.
It was beautiful and peaceful below the surface, yes. But there were also risks.
Time moved differently. Distance and your bearings felt distorted. It was magical and mysterious, but it could also go wrong. And that's why you needed someone else with you.
My thirties
In my thirties, I found myself packing away my dive watch, fins, and boots into the attic, and turning my fascination with deep waters inward.
I began exploring the layers and depths of my own psyche.
It began with booking a one-way flight to where the Dalai Lama resided in Dharamshala, Himachal Pradesh, India - with the very simple intention to “learn how to meditate from someone who does it best." I spent a week doing just that - and was blessed with the miracle of meeting the man himself in the process… but that's a story for another time.
The rest of my thirties were spent exploring many paths and modalities that allowed me to dive deeper into the emotional waters of my body and the realms of the subconscious mind.
For the first five years, I led people down into their bodies and subconscious through yoga, teaching full-time across Manchester and then in an amphitheatre in Turkey.
It was only when I discovered a powerful modality called experiential healing - an esoteric version of hypnosis based on timeline work alongside reading soul plans- that my work began to expand from the bottom-up, body-based subconscious work (yoga) to include top-down enquiry and expansion into viewing from the perspective of the soul.
Over nine experiential healing sessions with a wonderful practitioner, I unlocked more creative power, flow, and joy than I think I'd ever felt before.
I decided to study the modality myself - and it was from there that my first 1:1 online hypno-led practice began (as part of my first business, The Beloved Company)
For three years through lockdown, I guided women 1:1 on powerful inner healing journeys, whilst living abroad in Turkey (the nudge of my intuition to pivot to online days before lockdown was spot on)
I LOVED this work.
When I later moved back to the UK post-lockdown, I continued these journeys for my team in a freelance job. Every week I'd follow the energy and intuitively create and guide a journey for the group.
Yep, diving in these ephemeral deep waters of the psyche is my passion.
Fear and a friend
We're taught to be scared of deep waters…just as we learn to be scared of the dark, born of age-old survival programming that fears the unknown.
But the darkness needn't be scary.
We forget that we can venture down there with the light of our own loving awareness, and with another's hand to hold - helping to guide and stabilise us (just like my buddy would back in my scuba diving days).
We forget that the shadow is not just a void…
It's rich.
It's fertile.
It's brimming with life and treasures.
But also risks.
It's laden with the powers and gifts that were cast out, and you relegated to the shameful, before you had mature awareness and conscious choice.
Here they grow and take on a force of their own. They can be like the strong current that threatened to pull my friend away during that dive one time. So sometimes we need someone to help anchor and stabilise us, to help us approach gently and tentatively, aware of the risks.
Scuba diving and hypnosis
Scuba diving gave me a taste of what it felt like to drop down into my true self - peaceful and expansive.
Hypnosis let me explore what lies between my deep true self and everything that happens on the surface of life: the layers of conditioning, wounding and false personas.
That is why I do this work and why it's my passion…
Many of us are taught that love and safety cannot coexist with the qualities we have hidden in our shadow. But we need to integrate these qualities if we're going to become who we truly are.
Being a hypnosis practitioner means I can hold another person's hand and help guide them back to the beauty of their true selves - all whilst they lead the way, with their own wisdom and inner voice.
A forever love of depth
I love depth, because it reveals what is true.
And the truth is always beautiful.
Even when it's painful, uncomfortable, dreadful, or unexpected…it's so fucking beautiful.
There are pearls waiting for you on the seabed.
The most precious parts of you.
Waiting for you to come and retrieve them.
Are you ready to take a dive into your subconscious and find them?
JOURNAL PROMPTS
Mercury and Venus Retrograde prompts
What were you taught you could not be, do, or have if you received love and support?
Where do you leave your truth to make things more comfortable for others?
What simple practice helps you return to your truth amid all the noise?
Want to delve deeper into your psyche and need a guide?
My hypnotherapy practice is open.
This isn't your standard hypnotherapy.
It's ALCHEMICAL HYPNOTHERAPY
Alchemical Hypnosis guides people to delve within and connect with their own wisdom, guidance, and answers. My approach to all journeys centres around presence, compassion, and creating profound safety for all parts of you.
I weave in numerous objective, spiritual, and esoteric systems to help us navigate the deep psyche and unlock what you most want and need.
This is root-level deep work.
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